Thursday, October 30, 2008

I Might Miss Something

With the impending birth of this baby, I feel like if I let myself take too much time away from our normal activities that I might miss something.

See, I don't have close friends that I talk to everyday here. (I'm not complaining, just stating a fact.) So, we have things we go to most days of the week and I see the same moms whom I relate to and can talk to and have a little bit of adult time with. And, if I miss those things, I'll miss those connections, those few interactions with people over the age of four.

And, I know that it's not good for me to miss those connections, those snippets of conversations. I feel like they are on their way to making good friends.

Also, after Kolby's birth, I had a really hard time. I got depressed. I probably should have gone to see the doctor but that seemed like too much work. I had dropped our of my MOPS group because of the birth of Kolby and I hadn't made a friend anyway, so it didn't seem to matter. Our internet went down so I couldn't connect to anyone in the internet world either. Not that anyone actually read or reads this blog but it at least feels like something!

I don't want to slip into that depression again with this baby. I want to truly enjoy his infancy and if that means bringing him with us to our differing activities, that is what we'll do.

I have learned that I can be sustained on these snippets of adult conversation. I need those. I have also seen in the last week that I need to wake up before my kids and read my Bible and do my study. It makes all of our days go better.

I have had some not so easy days and they weren't all due to the attitudes of my children. More mine. I have been impatient with them and prone to anger. I don't like it and neither do they. It makes us all grouchy. Which is not surprising.

Last night at our Midlink Bible study, Isaiah 61:3 was read. "...and to provide ff or those who grieve in Zion- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor."

I want to wear a garment of praise in my everyday life. Starting today.

What garment are you wearing?

**See, I don't want to miss this stuff. I need this stuff!


  1. I read your blog, Kristi!! You must be due really close to my sister. She is due the 11th of November. I can't wait to hear the news of your baby's birth.

  2. Your honestly is so refreshing! I hear you about not having the connecctions, there is something to being able to connect with grown-ups. Where are you guys right now? I've just accidently found your blog, which I'm stoked about. My email is we can email and even chat on the tele if you'd like. I sure miss you guys back here! How's your belly feeling? btw Townes will be 2 on Dec. 3rd.

  3. I remember those down feelings after each baby, for me it was worse after Gabe, we had just moved, changed churches and hadn't really connected with anyone at the new church yet, I was pretty down for the first 4 or so months of his life. If you ever want/need to talk to someone please give me a call, I remember those feelings oh so well. We are anxiously awaiting news of baby boy's birth:) and will continue to pray for all of you in the days to come.

  4. I read your blog! I know what you mean about CRAVING grown-up time! I will be praying that this time you don't get the "down" feeling!

  5. Hi Kristy - I've been reading your blog and can't wait to meet our new GREAT nephew via internet pics. Love to all of you, Sharie

  6. Chunk - I read your blog last night but I felt compelled to come back and comment today. I just wanted to say thank you for being so honest and transparent about your struggles as a mom and as God's child. So many times I have things that are on my heart but I don't blog them because I wonder who might be reading it and what they might think - never stopping to consider how God could use me in my weakness. I think you are so wise to think things through and have accurate expectations of your time with a newborn again. I love you and am so thankful for who you are, how God is using you, and I'll be praying for you as #3 comes to join your family. Can't wait to meet him and hug you again - maybe in January?

  7. I needed to hear this, too. I'm getting ready to do a big time simplifying and getting myself in order. It's good you are doing this BEFORE baby gets here. I think you have a great plan in place and will pray that you make some great connections!



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