Friday, October 09, 2009

Craving Chocolate

I've been in a bit of a bad mood lately. Maybe you've noticed. I'm pretty sure my husband has. I've been down and just haven't snapped out of it. I've spent time in the Word and praying. But I just feel like yuck.

We're still struggling through potty training Kolby. Number 2 is holding out on us. The only way I mean that is that he poops in his underwear more than half the time. If he hasn't, most likely, it is because I noticed The Look and got him to the potty. But, I know he can do it. I know he can. He's done it. Just last week, after a nap, he went to the bathroom, unprompted and did his business and tried to wipe. I wasn't even around. I just happened to check on him. He was even wearing a pull up for his nap. And I am beyond frustrated with it. I'm so over it. He's 3.5. I mean, really. At this rate, he won't be fully potty trained for his high school graduation.

Levi doesn't quite sleep through the night. We have good nights, like last night where he woke up at 3:23 and I nursed him and he was back in his bed by 3:49. And we have bad nights like the uncountable nights before.

And he bit me today. HARD. While nursing. I yelled very loudly and then sat him down away from me. He cried and crawled over to me. I picked him up and he laid his head on my shoulder. He hasn't bitten in so long, but this one was so hard. I still shudder a little thinking of the pain.

I've also been going through the book Shepherding A Childs Heart by Ted Tripp with some women. And I feel like I am struggling with parenting. It is a tiring, impossible process that never ends. I feel like everything I do is wrong. And that I continue to mess up my kids. It is only by the grace of God that they will grow up. I just want to do things right. But my sinful nature keeps getting in the way. I'm selfish. So selfish. So are they. It isn't a great combination.

All that to say, I really wanted some chocolate today. So I made this cake.

Chocolate Cream Cheese Pound Cake

1 box chocolate fudge cake mix
8 oz. cream cheese
1/2 cup water
1/2 cup veg. oil
1/4 cup sugar
4 eggs
2 teaspoons vanilla
1 cup chocolate chips (optional)

Spray bundt pan with Bakers Joy. Put all ingredients except chocolate chips in a bowl and beat on low for one minute. Scrape sides of bowl then beat two minutes on medium speed. Add chocolate chips and stir. Pour in pan. Bake at 325 degrees for one hour. Remove and let cool for 20 minutes. Invert on platter and eat with strawberries, raspberries and whipped cream or plain.

Want a piece?


  1. can i stop by and have a piece? or you can come over and see how messy our house is :)

    jackson finally was potty trained at 3 1/2 years. it literally took me 6 months! i know it's frustrating. and we know that he won't be pooping in his pants in kindergarten so give yourself some grace.

  2. Yum!!!
    Sorry to here you've been struggling. I'll pray for you. I am not looking forward to potty training the boys. Hope you have a good weekend and enjoy some more of that cake!

  3. Friend, if we were still potty training I would be down in the dumps too. That's really tough. I'll be praying for victory to come. I know you feel discouraged, but from my point of view you are one incredible mom. I learn from you every time we talk. Your boys are so blessed.

  4. Kristy, you are one of the best moms that I know. Don't be so hard on yourself. But know that it's okay to have a bad day, we all do. I love your honesty. =)

    Ouch! The biting! I am definitely not looking forward to that! And little Kolby and his potty training...more that I have to look forward to, huh?

  5. gretchen from lifenutSat Oct 10, 11:22:00 AM

    Cake is the cure, sometimes.

    I'd take a piece. Have any coffee?

  6. i love your blog, kristy! i found your name on tiffany's blog. i've had so much fun reading about what's going on in your life and what your three cuties are up to. we're starting potty training with tatum and it's not going well either. i'll pray kolby gets the poop figured out this week! hope to see you soon!

  7. that is such a good idea. just make a big, beautiful cake when it feels right. good for you :) :)


  8. Pretending that I am sitting down to eat a GIANT slice of cake with you right now. It has been one of those weeks around her too. I am constantly thanking God that it is by His grace that Caroline will ever turn out ok!


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