I blog because it is a release. I blog because I live away from family who love to know all the small details of my life, which is my son, Sage. I blog because I can reflect on things that Sage is doing, I am struggling with, things that happen to be mommy things. Why? Because I am a mommy. I am a mommy 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. At this time in my life, it seems it is all I do. When do I wake up? When Sage wakes up. When do I eat? When Sage eats. Everything that I do is for my family. I make breakfast, we eat, and I clean up. I shower (sometimes) or go mall walking, or go to a playgroup. I make lunch, we eat, and I clean up. Sage takes a nap and so do I (sometimes). We might go to the grocery store or Target and then I make dinner, we eat and I clean up. In between those things, I wash a load of clothes, hang them up and put the washer away, I clean the bathroom, sweep and mop the floor, swiffer the floors and while I do those things, I listen for what Sage is doing. As I type, I listen as he crawls under the table and plays with his Thomas train. I listen as I sweep to make sure he is playing in the living room and not destroying the Christmas tree. I listen as I clean the bathroom or watch to make sure he doesn’t put his hand in any harmful chemicals. I also think. I think about what I need to do today, can I play with my son a lot or a little? Do I need to bake anything to take somewhere? Do we have enough milk, bread, and cheese? Do I need to go get anything? My thoughts and actions revolve around being a mommy. I am also pregnant and I worry. Do I pray enough for the child growing inside me? Do I think of him enough? Do I eat right so my new son can have great health?
Some of my blogs are my frustrations with my life, husband or son. Some are funny or at least I try to make them funny. I blog to brighten others day. I blog because it brightens my day.
This blog is in response to a blog I read about not wanting to read about mommy blogs. It upset me at first. But now, after blogging, I realize that for me, it doesn't matter if people read my blog, it is an outlet for me. Maybe I don't have the most creative subject matters, but it is a way for me to release feelings and opinions. As my name states this blog is about my thoughts and happenings. Some good thoughts, some bad, some good happenings, some bad. I choose to share with you, the blogging world. Sometimes, I don't share things because I don't want to offend anyone. But not offending people is not my purpose for this blog. So, from now on, I am going to be more real with you. By more real I mean tell you more of my thoughts. Not more gritty details but thoughts about life. It seems scarier to put my thoughts out for your consideration than it does the details of my day. You will judge me. And, at this moment, I don't care.