Wednesday, July 28, 2010

stream of conciousness

I went to the midwife this morning.  On the way there, Sage asked if I had to pee in a cup again.  Am I scarring him for life?  I missed my appointment last week because Kolby woke up with a 102 fever.  I tried a couple of babysitters but it didn't work out.  I didn't get my Group B strep test last week, so I got it today and she checked me because of my history with early dialation.

First, she felt my belly and said this will probably be my smallest baby and that's okay because girls tend to be smaller.  If only that had translated to less weight gain!  She felt her back and where I'm getting all the feet kicks, she said her head was down but didn't feel too low.  I agreed, I've had some pressure but nothing too incredible.

After the test, she checked me out and said her head is really low.  Lower than she had thought, she didn't want to do an invasive check but she was sure I was 3 probably more towards 4 cm.

After having 3 babies, I kind of knew this is the information we would get, but it still makes me nervous.  She also told us to keep some stuff in the car so we don't ruin it.  Maybe I should have asked what kinds of things.  I just pictured puppy's pee pads.  Do you think that's what she meant?  She also suggested trying to stay off my feet as much as possible.  "I don't know if you have help at home..."  I've gotten that question a couple times in the last couple of months.

Kolby's scabs are healing slower than we thought, so no cast this week.  God's timing is perfect.  God's timing is perfect.  God's timing is perfect.  Drew is fighting our insurance company to get the Ponseti certified dr. in Houston covered.  His benefits advocate found some loophole about a certified doctor being covered within 75 miles.  I'm still praying that God will guide/force us to the right doctor.  The Houston dr. would be so much more convenienant but we haven't met him, what if he's not nice or is just wrong for us?

Also, since I just had the Group B strep test, if I were to go into labor before next week, I would be treated like I was positive just in case.  I'm really praying to keep her in at least one more week and then we'll reevaluate.

My thoughts go back and forth from Kolby to the baby, Kolby, baby, Kolby, baby.  With a little of Sage is starting school soon.

We got Kolby's new shoes to wear at night and I'm so happy to tell you that he has adjusted perfectly to them.  He's worn them 4 nights and it's kind of like he never stopped wearing them.  Click here to see what they look like.  They keep his feet turned out at 60 degrees.

I feel like we are totally ready for this baby, except the whole Group B strep thing.  God's timing is perfect.  God's timing is perfect.

Do you think there is a lesson for me to learn here? 

11 comments:

  1. Seriously... I feel like that is one lesson we never fully learn.. I have issues with that all the time... but just because we struggle with the idea of it.. doesn't mean it isn't still true :)

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  2. Be thankful there are no Levi-related issues!!

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  3. OHHHH..... SO EXCITING!!!!!!

    A lot of lessons we review often and each time we find ourselves staring at the course outline, it is a bit easier! You are passing this one with flying colors.....A+,I am sure!

    Yes, His timing IS always perfect!

    Trusting with you,
    Mom

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  4. Hey I found you on Baby Bangs...we share a love of Cherry DP :)
    Best of luck with the rest of your pregnancy!!

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  5. Friend, you amaze me. I love you to pieces. How can I help you right now?

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  6. God's timing is perfect. I've been repeating the same truth to myself the past few days. Being on bedrest is like being in a giant timeout.

    These are crazy times, but just think...in a mere few weeks, ~all~ of these concerns will be just a memory. A new crop of stuff will come up to take its place! :)

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  7. Praying things work out in His timing but also that they work out conveniently for you too:) Even though I had to have c-sections with my babies I still had to be tested for Group B in case my water were to break before my section, I was negative with both boys but positive with Callie, go figure, better to be safe then sorry I guess. So glad Kolby is adjusting well to his shoes at night, that would be tough. Can't wait to see Miss Annika:)

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  8. I'm going to join you. God's timing is perfect, God's timing is perfect, God's timing is perfect! I was just thinking...if that playdate worked out (I need to e-mail you back!), how crazy would it be if it were on a day that you had Annika?? I could help watch the boys! And help you! And call Drew! I'll see if I can time it right. :)

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  9. That lesson is SOOOO hard. I'm excited about her being here so soon though!

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  10. The "puppy pee pads" made me laugh!

    You have a beautiful heart. God loves you more then you can imagine and yes, His timing is perfect!

    Excited for this new chapter in your life.

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  11. I am laughing at my old self... I would have thought the baby could fall out being at a four... Oh how I was so naive back then!! Ha!

    Your strength is amazing! Love you!

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