My Poopy Day

My tag line on Facebook is something like "I'm living my dream; I just never realized it would involve so much poop."

That could be interpreted two different ways, like life is full poop and you just have to deal with it. Or, my way, literally poop.

My mom always told the story about my sister smearing her poop all over her crib. Spindle bars, of course. But that was her only poop story. That I remember anyway.

Yesterday, we had some errands to run. Post office, book store, mall, and the library. I am usually not that adventurous in my errand running. I stick to two but we were moving fast and making progress.

We ate lunch at the mall and Levi told me "Peeyou!" Meaning he needed his diaper changed. We did the deed. But the diaper was strangely dry. I changed it anyway, using my only diaper in my purse. (Note: I used my only diaper. No, I don't take a diaper bag with me. I keep a diaper and wipes in my purse. Note: that is stupid.)

We had one last stop at the library to pick up Adventures in Odyssey on cd, it was on hold so it should be a quick in and out. Except that my hold had expired the day before and they are really quick to put those holds back on the truck to some other lucky family.

So we were perusing the book on cd selections. When I heard a sound. A very liquid sound. And Levi said "Peeyou!" And boy was he right. Remember how I used my one and only diaper? And how I don't carry a diaper bag? (I'm so keeping it in the van.)

Being the laidback kind of mom, I just finished my perusing, a little more quickly and we got out of there. I stripped Levi of his overalls and found a gross hand towel to cover his carseat. Calm, cool and collected. We made it home and I got him cleaned up. Drew cleaned up the stroller when he got home. Oh, yes, the stroller was quite disgusting.

Then, we went to swimming lessons for Sage and Kolby. Kolby had an accident in his swim suit. I was not so calm, cool and collected this time. He'd done it last week too so I knew what was coming as to the clean up of him and the bathroom that would need disinfecting. And it broke me. I was a less than stellar mommy. I was a pretty horrible mommy.

I really wanted to end the day and the story on a funny note, but I just can't get over the fact that I was a downright terrible mommy. I have many excuses for acting so terrible. But they don't matter. I was not letting the Holy Spirit help me. Sure I prayed. I prayed "I can't do this!" Um, not really a helpful prayer. I have apologized and reapologized to the boys. I've talked about how I wasn't acting the way that I try to teach them to act. I talked about how mommy needs Jesus. And how mommy had to ask for forgiveness from God and how isn't God's grace amazing? I didn't promise I wouldn't ever do it again. Because I'm a sinner. But, I'm going to pray that I don't break down like that again. It was rough on all of us.

So, poop! It's gross and there is a lot of it in our house. And I'm about to have another pooping machine! But girls poop is cuter and doesn't smell, right?!

I'm Just Going to Write so I Can Write Something

I haven't been feeling the bloggy love lately. Meaning, I haven't wanted to write anything. So, I'm just going to write and see what comes out.

I've been feeling discontentment lately. I want a bigger house, a yard and a dog. I want to live closer to family for the reasons of having people to lean on and not having to vacation in our home states. I like where we live, don't get me wrong.

I wonder if I feel this way because we've never lived somewhere permanently before. We're as permanent as God has us. In the past, we were on a countdown. A countdown for Drew to finish school and we would move somewhere new. We've been here 2 years now and it seems like much longer. We don't have something in our future. We're living life here for as long as God allows.

We took our first exploratory trip in Texas last weekend. By first, I mean, we didn't go visit friends, we went by ourselves and stayed in a hotel. We went to San Antonio. Sage declared it the best trip ever! We visited the Alamo and learned about the war. We ate on the Riverwalk and did the boat tour. We went to El Mercado where I got a Mexican tunic shirt and a dress for Annika! As my friend, Annalee, pointed out, we're set for Cinco de Mayo now!

We went because we listened to a timeshare presentation. 2.5 hours of my life that I will never get back. And we had the boys. Never mind the fact that Drew and I are not on the spot decision makers. We, I should say, Drew, researches everything. We don't make a purchase without talking, thinking, praying through it.

But, we got two free nights in a hotel! And we said no to the timeshare. And it wasn't hard at all to say no to it.

We can't remember the last time we took our family on a trip and didn't stay with friends or family. When we lived in CT, we did mostly day trips with a little camping.

So, yeah. I'd like a bigger house, with some storage and a way for us to host our families more comfortably.

I'm kind of ready for a new adventure. And at the same time am loving living life.

Maybe I should look at my new adventure as becoming a mom of four and sending my oldest to kindergarten.

Or maybe I shouldn't think about sending my oldest to kindergarten. I'll just let that happen when it comes, that way I can't cry over it before it happens.

And that's what came out.

While Daddy Was Away

We ate dessert for dinner!

Brownies and ice-cream were requested.

Levi ate only the ice-cream.

Is it bad that my 18 month old can say ice-cream? And has been saying it for a while? Maybe I don't really want you to answer that!

Friday Morning Ramblings

I took the boys to get their haircut this morning.  Drama free.  Not one good story came out of it.  Except they look adorable.

Sage and Kolby are constantly playing war.  They fight against the British army.  Sometimes, one of them is the British army.  Usually, Kolby.  Kolby usually gets pegged as the bad guy or the monster.  I can't decide if he likes it or he just wants to play with Sage.

Yesterday, while I was at Bible study, the boys made a booklet about themselves.  Kolby's said Sage is his friend.  So sweet.

Bible study ended at 12 and I left the boys in childcare until 2, to accomplish two things that I can't take them with me to do.  1) Get my eyebrows threaded. 2) But a new undergarment.  Yes, I wrote a whole post about needing bigger panties and I can't bring myself to type the other word.  I'm weird.  I accomplished neither of those things.  But, I did go to Costco and get us milk and bread for the weekend.  And I bought lunch for myself at Chick-fil-A.  Surprise, surprise.

I went to an orientation for a midwifery service on Wednessday.  I am really excited about it!  The only reason I would have to get an iv is if I test positive for Group B strep or am anemic.  The baby will stay with me and will only be taken away if I ask for her to go to the nursery.  There were other things that I was excited about but can't remember right now.  I signed for them to transfer my files immediately.  I can also take the boys with me to appointments.  Not that I love that idea, but it will save us money. 

Did you know that in the state of Texas, if you refuse to have the baby get the eye drops, they have to report you to CPS and then you are on file at CPS? 

Did you know that the eye drops are to protect the baby from sexually transmitted disease?  Of which, I don't have.  So, there is no point in getting the eye drops.  With Kolby, I tried to refuse them and they said if the baby doesn't get the eye drops, he can't go to the nursery.  He got the eye drops. 

I have four minutes to hit publish before it is Friday afternoon. 

I don't know where Levi is right now. 

Have a great weekend!  We're dropping the boys off at Parents Night Out and going to an Astro's game!  I surprised Drew by getting the tickets when he was in Sudan. 

I love having Drew home. 

June

I'm going to try to take a picture of the kids the first of every month.
And, I'm trying to learn Photoshop from my husband

Here's June's photo finish.  And the accompanying story.  It was Sunday, May 30.  I had the boys and I dressed and ready to go, early even.  So, I said "Let's snap a picture before we head to church!"

Levi spotted his backpack.  And, would. not. put. it. down.  I gave up.

Kolby found his Spongebob watch from Burger King.  And wanted to wear it.  I gave in.

I told Sage and Kolby to hunch down closer to Levi.  Levi squatted too.

In my eye, it's still a cute picture in spite of because of those things.

I love these boys.