Sunday, September 20, 2009

Chalk One Up For...

"We don't achieve victory once, then never have to bother with it again, desiring to be Godly is the work of a lifetime."
-Beth Moore, Praying God's Word Day by Day

Quite honestly, I've been struggling with this lately. I desire to be Godly. But maybe I don't desire it everyday. Did I just admit that? Actually, I think I do desire it everyday but I don't want to do the work for it everyday. I want to achieve the goal and check, it's done. But, it's never going to be done.

"And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and especially to those who are of the household of faith." Galatians 6:9&10 (ESV)

I haven't written in a while, not because I haven't had words to say, or maybe I have had words, just a hard time expressing the thoughts mulling in my head.

We've had an uninvited guest rearing his ugly head in our house lately. Mr. Selfishness. Adults and children in our house have been affected. And by adults, I mean me.

This post sounded so much more eloquent in my head as I washed the dishes.

My friend suffered an ectopic pregnancy on Friday. I haven't been able to get rid of the thoughts of what could have been. How different my weekend could have looked. I praise God that I had a regular weekend, that she is home with her husband and kids. Selfishly, (see told ya) I'm so glad she's still here to be my friend.

A tree cracked in half in our neighborhood, landing partly on some parking spaces and a deck. No one was hurt, that I am aware. But, it made me think, we don't know when our time will be. When we'll get called home. Are you ready? Am I?

What would I have wanted to do today if this was my last? Did I do it?

I did some things today that I would have wanted to. But, I didn't do everything. I didn't tell my boys that Jesus loves them today. I didn't tell them that Jesus is the best thing in life.

I did read to Kolby, rock Levi and play Wii with Sage. I haven't spent enough time with Drew.

And that's my wrap up. I'm off to spend time with Drew.


  1. I needed to hear this today. Thank you.

  2. i love honest posts like this- i know we all know and feel that kind of week/season of time when things just are not smooth, things irk you, things just bother you (emotionally, etc) and it's all a lot to process, the big and little things...i know what you mean!


  3. I feel like you climbed inside my head today. Well not just today, but the past 6-weeks.

    It's like I want to do Godly things, but them I'm all like ooooh chocolate. or Ohhhh pretty dress. Completely self absorbed. And forgetful.

    And I desire to be Godly, but I just can't figure out what to do. I wrestle with doing.

    Praise God for sending Jesus.

  4. "But thanks be to God, who ALWAYS leads us in HIS TRIUMPH in CHRIST, and manifests through us the sweet aroma of the knowledge of Him in every place." 2Corinthians 2:14

    "..God is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure!" Philippians 2:13

    Praying for you Punkin!

    Love, Mom

  5. email me your number, again! i want to call youa round 10 my time tomorrow..does that work?

    been thinking about you alot...

    p.s. I think selfishness is what we are all taught to fight against. it's a daily battle. don't beat yourself up...His mercies are new every morning, right? I have definitely learned that lately. every time you come to God and say, "Hey, I messed up. I want to make it right", God smiles.

    I think the danger lies in when you get frustrated with yourself and decide you're not even going to try any more. That's when the deceiver gets a foothold.

  6. p.s. i have been thinking a LOT about "last days", after Friday. I met with the surgeon today and she re-iterated how "lucky" i was. just gave me a renewed sense of purpose, you know?


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